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gabriel_laddel: hence why cl etc etc
gabriel_laddel: right, but I'm here to have a good time in spite of that
gabriel_laddel: why not program JS for a living
gabriel_laddel: why are we here if not to have fun
gabriel_laddel: anything!
gabriel_laddel: then what the fuck is the point!?
gabriel_laddel: I no longer smoke, but programming while smoking was always nice.
gabriel_laddel: !?
gabriel_laddel: trinque: ah, so nicotine is one of my favorite as well
gabriel_laddel: and by preference?
gabriel_laddel: like a responsible adult
gabriel_laddel: fine, trinque, what are your top 3 favorite substances to use in moderation, with a trip sitter, etc etc
gabriel_laddel: trinque: so what /were/ your top 3.
gabriel_laddel: so yeah, I'm optimizing for something specific.
gabriel_laddel: the problem with being healthy is that I get too turned on by everything.
gabriel_laddel: trinque: so what is your top 3 favorite substances of abuse?
gabriel_laddel: oh, derp
gabriel_laddel: I've been healthy before, but it sucks
gabriel_laddel: look, there are tradeoffs to be made
gabriel_laddel: oh this is nonsense
gabriel_laddel: well, that is a fair point, but I don't want to e.g., lose weight.
gabriel_laddel: trinque: ?
gabriel_laddel: I'll go with "I treat my body like shit, and do pretty well "
gabriel_laddel glances to the side, sees 10 orange crush cans. ☟︎
gabriel_laddel: trinque: I don't know.
gabriel_laddel: riiight.
gabriel_laddel: mircea_popescu: what, drinking and sex?
gabriel_laddel: And this is sort of what I'm getting at - people differ greatly. Modafinil doesn't work for me, some people can't take caffine before bed, some people can't drink and have sex (MP's eugenics article) and some can.
gabriel_laddel: punkman: nah
gabriel_laddel: yeah, but were you excited about it?
gabriel_laddel: multiple times.
gabriel_laddel: mircea_popescu: something akin to that, yes.
gabriel_laddel: (for the record, taking a regular caffine pill before sleep doesn't wok)
gabriel_laddel: that I should take the broomstick approach?
gabriel_laddel: how on *earth* am I supposed to read this?
gabriel_laddel: but all of this is solved when I take a pill - not just a caffine pill - but a coffee extract?
gabriel_laddel: trinque: I enjoyed the fuck out of going to buy $CENSORED and was really excited about it, but ended up sleeping through the allotted time.
gabriel_laddel: and all of this is solved by taking a pill before I go to sleep
gabriel_laddel: and even with people screaming at me, I still missed things
gabriel_laddel: trinque: you're missing my point, or I'm not stating it correctly. I've missed things I care deeply about because of sleep
gabriel_laddel: trinque: people have screamed things of this nature at me when I would miss the little school I went to
gabriel_laddel: trinque: you'd think that. but I've missed events I *really* wanted to attend because I wouldn't wake
gabriel_laddel: how else would you read that?
gabriel_laddel: trinque: I've lived with myself for 23 years, and have at no point been able to wake up sanely. I try it with these caffine pills and et viola! I wake up like a normal human!
gabriel_laddel: yeah, I don't know what this "being a man" stuff is about
gabriel_laddel: yeah, I'm not really sure how this relates to me.
gabriel_laddel: oh.
gabriel_laddel: trinque: could you please tell this story.
gabriel_laddel: what
gabriel_laddel: ...
gabriel_laddel: trinque: and why would you do this to someone?
gabriel_laddel: trinque: how would this help anything?
gabriel_laddel: trinque: !?!?
gabriel_laddel: none of it works.
gabriel_laddel: I've tried setting alarms, getting enough sleep etc.
gabriel_laddel: I understand the point you're making, but simply don't find that it applies to my situation.
gabriel_laddel: I would lol if it wasn't your uncle.
gabriel_laddel: with easyup: 20 minutes and I'm chipper
gabriel_laddel: and the whole process of brushing teeth takes like 1 hour
gabriel_laddel: othewise I wake up and hate myself, am unable to open my eyes etc ☟︎
gabriel_laddel: for example, taking the EasyUp before going to sleep
gabriel_laddel: mircea_popescu: look, there are some things that I *know* make my body work better
gabriel_laddel: I know more than they do.
gabriel_laddel: actually, with respect to portage / gentoo / funtoo - yeah
gabriel_laddel: isn't that what you were implying?
gabriel_laddel: "I am the guy who coded for 40 hrs" < ?
gabriel_laddel: lol, I'm not doing it for other people
gabriel_laddel: and then I spend more time hacking apart portage than I would have otherwise
gabriel_laddel: or both?
gabriel_laddel: wrt coffee or modafinil?
gabriel_laddel: and makes my thoughts disjointed.
gabriel_laddel: it does *nothing* for my sleep cycle
gabriel_laddel: they stay awake for 40 ish hours with no issues.
gabriel_laddel: trinque: for example, the modafinil that I've taken works great for other people.
gabriel_laddel: trinque: it seems to me that the other thing missing from this discussion is that we've all very different chemistry.
gabriel_laddel: trinque: "for me that's plenty to get to work" ?
gabriel_laddel: trinque: what, via coffee, or in general?
gabriel_laddel: oh, and without coffee I get distracted.
gabriel_laddel: it's a horrid slog through boring nonsense, depression, the works.
gabriel_laddel: I don't have ideas that I would consider interesting.
gabriel_laddel: trinque: in part. It's also that I'm just not interested or excited about life without coffee.
gabriel_laddel: trinque: so wait, you don't get more absorbed in whatever you're doing when drinking coffee?
gabriel_laddel: yeah, but it's more fun when "high".
gabriel_laddel: (of code or english, take your pick)
gabriel_laddel: and the multiple day reading binges
gabriel_laddel: trinque: the problem I have with being coffee-free isn't the stress, but rather that I miss having my thoughts race around
gabriel_laddel: trinque: and have not done hard drugs in years
gabriel_laddel: trinque: to be clear, I've done this.
gabriel_laddel: I've been burnt out on coke and hating life, but never have had this effect.
gabriel_laddel: and it *only* happens with coffee.
gabriel_laddel: I'm not. It's just... odd.
gabriel_laddel: and is very odd.
gabriel_laddel: it's sort of like a phantom limb effect.
gabriel_laddel: and this goes away completely when I don't drink a lot of coffee
gabriel_laddel: same with cars.
gabriel_laddel: with coffee there are all sorts of weird things: like whenever I have a bike pass me by, I sort of envision it running into me.
gabriel_laddel: nah, the caffine effect is different.
gabriel_laddel: trinque: yeah
gabriel_laddel: like, you're just standing and then the stray thought "hey, it'd be nice to fall into bed, except there isn't a bed her" flies through your mind?
gabriel_laddel: trinque: do you have the effect of almost fainting sometimes?